Archive for July, 2008
Old times, good times
It seems we always miss something, someone, some place, some… some… And we also regret something, something we said, something we didn’t say. I do, you do, I think everybody does. Sometimes you can solve it out, sometimes you cannot do it. Yesterday I testified a happy resolution, a very happy one in fact, and that made me think and made me remember lots of fortunate and unfortunate events. It made me remember the first days with B, we didn’t know each other, we didn’t know how to react in specific situations, but we managed to find the right way and now here we are. It made me remember my friends back in Romania: Cornelia, Sabina, Alina, the two Cris, Vali, all of them. I miss them so much. It made me remember that I was a bitch to some and I never tried to explain my behaviour, and I have this “nice” conscience that makes me remember it when I’m down, down, down… I remembered when I gave birth to Alex, the best thing I ever did. It made me remember when I was feeling a complete stranger in this country, now I feel I belong here, with my husband and my son. It made me remember lots of things, some that I wanted to remember and some that I didn’t…
I also found out that this “nice” conscience or something made me delete my old blogs. I never understood why, but thanks God, archive.org exists so I could save some posts which I published in Mandarinux with the original dates. Maybe the one that most impressed me, and made me want to travel to Romania NOW NOW NOW was this one:
Last Saturday at work… I miss you so much, guys, you are all very special persons to me.
Well, that would be all for today. I am very happy I FINALLY got to meet Estela, and that she brought back to me all these special memories.